Very Productive

The past two days I have spent in front of the computer, writing papers and studying for midterms. I feel like I have accomplished a lot and I am pretty proud of myself. Unfortunately, the second I finish one thing, five more things pop up. I discovered the post-it note application and the whole right side of my desktop is covered in post-it notes with things that I have to get done. I feel like the list will never end. Each time I delete one thing, I have to add more.

Luckily it is week six of the term and it is going by quickly. I still have a lot to do before I graduate, especially a lot for my senior design dinner. Our goal is to have all of our recipes extended and have figure out the cost of all the ingredients by this Thursday. I wish all of my recipes were set, but none of them are. I am combining a whole bunch of recipes and I am not even completely sure they will all work together. I have a lot of thinking to do and all I really want to do is just forget about it. The only problem is, I care too much to not care. Sometimes I wish I was one of those people who could just not give a damn and not feel bad. If I don't care about something enough or try hard enough, it'll eat me up.

I really wish I had an outlet like working out, but I can't right now with the situation of my hip. I have never wanted to work out so badly in my life. I really just wanna go for a long run, sweat my ass off, and be so exhausted that all I care about is taking a shower and going to sleep. I haven't had a good night's sleep in a long time because of my hip and I seriously miss it. I have never had a problem sleeping in my whole life. Now, when all I want to do is sleep and forget about all the stuff I have to do, I can't. How fair is that?